as real as it seemed

pleace accept my apologies, wonder what would have been.
would you've been a little angel, or an angel of sin? tom-boy running aroung hanging with all the guys? or a little though girl with beautiful blue eyes?
i payed for the murder before they determined the sex, choosing our life over your life ment your death. and you never got a chance to even open your eyes, sometimes i wonder as a foetus if you faught for your life? would you have been a little genius in love with math? would you have played in your schoolclothes and made me mad? would you have been a little rapper, like your papa da piper? would you have made me quit smoking by finding one of my lighters? 
what i thought was a dream was as real as it seemed.

i love you who ever you would have been.